Tuesday, October 2, 2018

10/01/2018

Well...here I am...

Things are going well.  Something is cogitating in this ol' head of mine.  I've got an intense couple of days coming up, so hopefully I'll be able to get it all out into words this weekend.

The scale is down...below 300.  I'm happy with that.  I think I have to get a new scale.  It used to be bang on and consistent every time.  Now it will show a range of weights after multiple weighings.

I have a HUGE interview on Wednesday - an all day interview...for a job that I never even thought I'd be considered.  One thing I had to do was take a suite of personality, leadership, and values tests.  I met with the interpreter today.  He was very complimentary overall, but said that I'm hypercritical of myself and just too damn hard on myself - no kidding!  I also scored very high on the skeptical band. Well...there you go.  I never think anything is going to work!

That sounds pretty terrible, but it's not as bad as it sounds.

That's about it for now.

Thursday, September 27, 2018

09/27/2018

Well...here I am...

I'm trying hard to stay on top of things.

I have an important interview next week, I've returned to work, hubster is on travel, and I'm behind on everything!

I had a personnel issue this week that frustrated me...still does actually.  Anyway, I needed to go to Sam's because I had to pick lunch for the next day for my staff meeting and cleaning supplies for the cleaning lady.  I was so irritated that I forgot the cleaning supplies.  So I had to go back the next day to get the cleaning supplies.

Now Dairy Queen is right down the road and it was such a pull.  I had to do a lot of talking to myself to not visit the place.  Well - I was successful on both occasions and did not make the visit.

I also had to make a visit to Walmart last evening.  By this time, it was getting late, I was tired, and I was hungry.  One side of my brain told me to just stop and get Culver's; the other side told me to just go home and heat up one of the chicken quarters I had bought along with the prepared salad I had bought from Sam's.

I overcame that draw as well.  While I was at Walmart, I did buy a can of spaghetti - comfort food to be sure.  Not the best choice, not the worst choice - better than it could have been.

I am struggling at work - seems there's always something going on and there's always a bowl of candy; I'm avoiding it, but not always successful.

It is a work in progress.  I am a work in progress.

Monday, September 24, 2018

09/24/2018

Well...here I am...

I'm still here.  It's just been a rough few days.

I have 10 hour days at work.  I was told that I needed to take it easy when I returned to work, but I ended up working more than 23 hours over two days.  Then I did a parade of homes with a friend of mine.  It took two days to go through all the homes.  As I was getting out of her truck on the first day, I wrenched my back and that put the kibosh on any more homes on Friday.  On Saturday, my back felt a bit better, but my right knee felt like it was the size of a football.  But I took ibuprofen and forged ahead.  When it was all said and done, I collapsed.  I over-did it and now I'm taking a day and chilling.

Food-wise, it's been a "learning" time.  Before we left each day, I made sure I ate in order to minimize poor eating.  It didn't exactly work out the way I planned.

On the first day, my friend suggested we stop and get a Blizzard.  I had the attitude of "I can have this - I'll be good later."  This is not an attitude that is conducive to successful weight loss - at least not for me.  In any event, she ordered and ordered LARGES.  I honestly was not paying attention to what she ordered when she placed the order.  When I'm on my own, I order a medium, which really isn't any better.

Then on the second day, one of the homes had made freshly baked chocolate chip cookies.  I didn't have just one cookie - I had 6.  This isn't good either.

I really, REALLY have to cut out the added sugar.  It's not good for me and I know this.  I will work to do better and work to stay on top of my emotions.  I can't delay this until later and I have to take ownership - I have to take the lead in this.  I can't allow myself to be influenced by others when it comes to poor food behavior.  It's my ass...literally!

Hubster left for travel and will be gone for a bit.  I generally make a trip to Sam's and get a big ol' salad and a pork roast to put in the crock pot to eat for the week.  I didn't feel like going anywhere, so I just stayed home and ate leftovers out of the refrigerator.  Hubster had grilled a huge pile of green beans along with some yellow, red, and orange peppers - they are so good.  I also had some leftover salmon and grilled chicken.  So those were good choices.

I spent some time today reading about weight loss and health.  I'm formulating what I want to do.  I have a doctor's appointment on Thursday, so I'll talk with him then and get his opinion.

I clearly don't have my ducks in a row, but it's a work in progress.  I'm hanging in there.