Tuesday, October 23, 2018


Well...here I am...

I will be going to work tomorrow since I didn't win the lottery tonight.  Oh well.

The stress level has been pretty high.  My job would be much easier if it weren't for the people.  We're also STIL remodeling our house.  Currently, the master, my office, the media room, and the kitchen are in the midst of some type of renovation.  I'll post pictures one day.

Food-wise, weight-wise, mind-wise - I'm working on it each and every day.  I've been trying to stick with the no added sugar/no white food thing.  Some folks don't think it's a good idea, but I believe I'm starting to learn that I just can't...I just can't.  It doesn't lead to good things for me.

When I was successful way back in 2014, it was from cutting out white foods and I felt great.  The toughest part was kicking the initial sugar craving and trying to ensure I had some variety.  Even with that though, I'm also learning that during the week, boring is good.  I'm so busy, I don't want to have to think about what/how to cook.

This past weekend, hubster cooked 8 monstrous chicken breasts and roasted a huge bag of broccoli - I've fallen in LOVE with roasted broccoli.  He also roasted a bunch of red and yellow peppers and fresh green beans.  I roasted some brussel sprouts.  That's what we've been eating this week and while it's boring, it's working for me.  Breakfast is the toughest for me, but I have some tuna, cheese, and stuff like that.

I've got some funky hormonal issues going on that I'm trying to get figured out.  One doctor wants to try some really crazy shit.  While I'm about willing to try anything, I'm not willing to do stupid.  I had an appointment with my regular doctor, but he had an emergency so I had to see another doctor who was just a complete asshole and offered no discussion or help.  So I have to wait until January to see my regular doc.


It's a work in progress.  Right now, I'm strong and trying to figure out what it is that's making me strong, so I can pull from it when I'm not feeling so strong.


Tuesday, October 2, 2018


Well...here I am...

Things are going well.  Something is cogitating in this ol' head of mine.  I've got an intense couple of days coming up, so hopefully I'll be able to get it all out into words this weekend.

The scale is down...below 300.  I'm happy with that.  I think I have to get a new scale.  It used to be bang on and consistent every time.  Now it will show a range of weights after multiple weighings.

I have a HUGE interview on Wednesday - an all day interview...for a job that I never even thought I'd be considered.  One thing I had to do was take a suite of personality, leadership, and values tests.  I met with the interpreter today.  He was very complimentary overall, but said that I'm hypercritical of myself and just too damn hard on myself - no kidding!  I also scored very high on the skeptical band. Well...there you go.  I never think anything is going to work!

That sounds pretty terrible, but it's not as bad as it sounds.

That's about it for now.

Thursday, September 27, 2018


Well...here I am...

I'm trying hard to stay on top of things.

I have an important interview next week, I've returned to work, hubster is on travel, and I'm behind on everything!

I had a personnel issue this week that frustrated me...still does actually.  Anyway, I needed to go to Sam's because I had to pick lunch for the next day for my staff meeting and cleaning supplies for the cleaning lady.  I was so irritated that I forgot the cleaning supplies.  So I had to go back the next day to get the cleaning supplies.

Now Dairy Queen is right down the road and it was such a pull.  I had to do a lot of talking to myself to not visit the place.  Well - I was successful on both occasions and did not make the visit.

I also had to make a visit to Walmart last evening.  By this time, it was getting late, I was tired, and I was hungry.  One side of my brain told me to just stop and get Culver's; the other side told me to just go home and heat up one of the chicken quarters I had bought along with the prepared salad I had bought from Sam's.

I overcame that draw as well.  While I was at Walmart, I did buy a can of spaghetti - comfort food to be sure.  Not the best choice, not the worst choice - better than it could have been.

I am struggling at work - seems there's always something going on and there's always a bowl of candy; I'm avoiding it, but not always successful.

It is a work in progress.  I am a work in progress.