Friday, February 15, 2019

02/15/2019 I am...

Things are good.  I think about all the things I'd like to write about, but I rarely have the time to actually stop and write.  Life has been busy.

However, the scale has been steadily going down - in the 280s - so I'm happy with that.  I had an awesome discussion with my doctor in early January.  We both agree that intermittent fasting, good food, and good sleep is the way to go.  We also agreed to appointments every 6 weeks.  So far, so good.

I've changed my focus in a variety of ways.  Don't get me wrong - it's still a work in progress, but I feel I'm making REAL progress.

First - I'm working really, REALLY hard to make sure I'm in bed LIGHTS OUT by 9 pm so I can try to get 7 hours of sleep since my alarm goes off at 4:15.  I've even started wearing an eye mask to ensure I'm not disturbed by hubster reading or turning on lights.  To help fall asleep, I read up on melatonin and discovered that the majority of folks take WAY too much of it.  Recommended dosage for folks over 50 is only 0.33 milligrams!!!  So I cut a 1 mg pill into thirds as best I can.  Finally, I stop drinking caffeine around 2 pm.  These three things are helping me to fall sleep and stay asleep.  And I think the sleep is helping me to lose some weight.  Seriously.

Second - Intermittent Fasting or Time-Restricted Eating.  I'm doing a modified version of this.  One time a week, I will fast for 42 hours - from the end of an evening meal through the next day through to lunch the following day.  On all other days, I eat between noon-12:30 (or so) and 7 pm.  Now the biggest kink in this is that I am drinking my coffee with half and half and stevia each morning.  Some diehard fasters would say, "well then, you're not fasting..."  Whatever.  The half and half raises neither glucose nor insulin; and I don't believe the stevia has that much of an effect either and my doctor agrees.  This is what is working for me as I make my way through this process.

Third - I'm trying to eat good healthy food without losing my shit over what I'm eating.  I'm not counting calories at all, but am keeping it to things that aren't processed as much as possible.  I'm not freaking when I eat potatoes, but I'm minimizing them and enjoying them.

Fourth - Hubster and I are working hard to de-stress.  Hubster had a heart scare that scared the bejeesus out of both of us.  I've loved that man for close to 40 years and we are not ready to lose each other.  We both have extremely demanding jobs that require long hours and lots of attention.  We are learning what the word "delegate" means.

The biggest thing I'm noticing is that there are no huge scale fluctuations - up/down/up/down - with a downward trend.  And as I said earlier, I can't help but think that the better sleep is helping with the weight loss.

Tuesday, October 23, 2018

10/23/2018 I am...

I will be going to work tomorrow since I didn't win the lottery tonight.  Oh well.

The stress level has been pretty high.  My job would be much easier if it weren't for the people.  We're also STIL remodeling our house.  Currently, the master, my office, the media room, and the kitchen are in the midst of some type of renovation.  I'll post pictures one day.

Food-wise, weight-wise, mind-wise - I'm working on it each and every day.  I've been trying to stick with the no added sugar/no white food thing.  Some folks don't think it's a good idea, but I believe I'm starting to learn that I just can't...I just can't.  It doesn't lead to good things for me.

When I was successful way back in 2014, it was from cutting out white foods and I felt great.  The toughest part was kicking the initial sugar craving and trying to ensure I had some variety.  Even with that though, I'm also learning that during the week, boring is good.  I'm so busy, I don't want to have to think about what/how to cook.

This past weekend, hubster cooked 8 monstrous chicken breasts and roasted a huge bag of broccoli - I've fallen in LOVE with roasted broccoli.  He also roasted a bunch of red and yellow peppers and fresh green beans.  I roasted some brussel sprouts.  That's what we've been eating this week and while it's boring, it's working for me.  Breakfast is the toughest for me, but I have some tuna, cheese, and stuff like that.

I've got some funky hormonal issues going on that I'm trying to get figured out.  One doctor wants to try some really crazy shit.  While I'm about willing to try anything, I'm not willing to do stupid.  I had an appointment with my regular doctor, but he had an emergency so I had to see another doctor who was just a complete asshole and offered no discussion or help.  So I have to wait until January to see my regular doc.


It's a work in progress.  Right now, I'm strong and trying to figure out what it is that's making me strong, so I can pull from it when I'm not feeling so strong.


Tuesday, October 2, 2018

10/01/2018 I am...

Things are going well.  Something is cogitating in this ol' head of mine.  I've got an intense couple of days coming up, so hopefully I'll be able to get it all out into words this weekend.

The scale is down...below 300.  I'm happy with that.  I think I have to get a new scale.  It used to be bang on and consistent every time.  Now it will show a range of weights after multiple weighings.

I have a HUGE interview on Wednesday - an all day interview...for a job that I never even thought I'd be considered.  One thing I had to do was take a suite of personality, leadership, and values tests.  I met with the interpreter today.  He was very complimentary overall, but said that I'm hypercritical of myself and just too damn hard on myself - no kidding!  I also scored very high on the skeptical band. Well...there you go.  I never think anything is going to work!

That sounds pretty terrible, but it's not as bad as it sounds.

That's about it for now.