I'm entering my fourth month of this journey and, like life itself, it has it's ups and downs.
The most recent "down" is discovering that planned splurges are probably not something that I'm going to be able to comfortably deal with - most definitely not on a regular basis. My weight is still up 4 days after Saturday's splurge and now it just makes me mad. Mad at myself.
At this point, I have no business having a splurge. I still have almost 100 lbs to lose and it's not like I don't have my eating plan structured so that I can enjoy my meals and still lose weight. I wasn't feeling deprived, stressed, or anything negative ahead of the meal. It's not like I was panicked, out of control, and just went off the deep end. I planned it.
I'm honestly trying to figure me out, figure this way of eating out...really, just trying to figure everything out.
If this is going to be for the rest of my life, should I expect that I can/will never have ice cream or eat too much at a meal? I mean, this isn't a diet, it's a life plan.
That last sentence is really the thing that has been hanging me up the last few days.
But, I think I may have figured something out.
When I started this, I had just a few simple rules:
- Mindful of everything I eat
- No added sugar
- Breathe, stay calm, and don't beat myself up.
- Don't give up before I even get started.
Now, what I think I've figured out is this: While I'm losing the majority of my weight (maybe down to 200 lbs), I think I need to follow these rules as close to 100% of the time as I can. As I get closer to my ideal weight, I think I will probably experiment (test?) to see how I deal with adding different foods back into my life, such as more fruit, starchier carbs, etc. At that point, I think my adherence will need to be 80%-90% of the time and I'll be able to do things like have a day like I had Saturday. But, I do feel that foods like sweets and desserts will necessarily need to be the rare experience.
This is how I've straightened it out in my head. Does it make sense? Or am I just crazy?
Being honest with myself and keeping my eyes open to my own bullshit is an ongoing part of the plan.
P.S. Here's a hilarious link of the brilliant answers that kids gave on their exams. It's HILARIOUS!