Well...here I am...
...thinking about my pants.
But first, the scale was down this morning. It looks like I may have broken through a mini-plateau. I think I may have been eating too much protein. Then again, it could just be the fact that I haven't been eating out - it's been five days!
So, I'm getting dressed this morning and I put on the next lower size. They fit perfectly. They were a little loose in the leg and fit at the waist; they were even comfortable at the end of the day. So I think I can officially say that I'm down from a 22 to a 20.
My problem, like it's really a problem, is that while I have plenty of size 20 jeans, most of them look like crap. I only have two pair that are really good for wearing to work. So I guess I'll be buying a few pairs of jeans this weekend. While I'm at it, I might just buy some shirts as well.
The 22's I have were bought at Christmas, so they're fairly new. I wish I knew someone wearing a 22-Tall. I'd pass them on.
It's a funny thing - even though the scale was down to a new low this morning and I'm in smaller size of pants, I'm not feeling successful. It's more a feeling of "been there, done that". My closet is full of size 20 pants, so there's nothing really different, nothing new. I hope I feel differently when I get into 18's.
This whole "thing" really tempers my entire mood and I have a hint of feeling overwhelmed at how much further I have to go. If I'm honest with myself at the moment, there's also a feeling of wanting to just throw in the towel.
Do I really know how to do this? Am I doing this the right way? If I am, can I really be successful? Can I really change my habits, my attitude, my life to get to where I want to be? To be what I want to be? Do I have the strength? The willpower? The IT.
Time will tell. I'm feeling a bit "less" at the moment, but I'm still on the wagon.