Well...here I am...
...thinking about my perception...or lack thereof...of calories.
The scale was down this morning - no bathroom dance needed.
Of course, I'm always pleased with that
Anyway, I was talking with a friend of mine yesterday who is
also trying to lose some weight. Our conversation touched
on calories and how they seem to really add up....once you start
noticing and taking a real stock.
I've been thinking about our conversation since then and realized
that I've had a caloric misperception for about as long as I can
remember. It seems to have expressed itself, at least in my
head, in different ways. That, along with "portion
distortion", has contributed to DBA*.
In some of my half-assed efforts of the past, I would eat
something, say a chicken breast and estimate a certain number of
calories. I had some idea in my head that since it was a "good
food", it couldn't possibly have too many calories. When I
would look up the calorie content, I would be shocked at the listed
calories. So what would I do??? I would tell myself one
of two things, either I must have over-estimated the amount I ate or
the listed calories was wrong. Where did THAT come from? Delusional much??
In the mornings, I usually have a strawberry smoothie. The
smoothie has some strawberries, a cup of unsweetened almond milk,
some protein powder, and a little bit of coconut oil, along with a
bunch of ice. I love it. Anyway, in my head, this
smoothie should be about 250 calories. In reality, the smoothie
has about 380 calories. If someone had asked me how many
calories I had for breakfast, I'd say about 400. This morning,
I had the estimated 400 calorie breakfast. The actual count:
654!!! That's 63% higher than I would have estimated if I
hadn't written it down!
The same thing happens with lunch. Today I had a salad with
romaine lettuce, 5 oz grilled chicken, 1.6 oz goat cheese, Newman's
Own Green Vinaigrette, and a serving of sundried tomatoes.
Again, I would have estimated about 350 calories. The actual
count: 459!! That's 31% higher!
I was thinking that it must be a failing of those of us who are of
a great voluptuous form. So tonight at dinner - yes, we ate out
AGAIN! - I asked hubster about the calorie content of his meal.
Hubster said he thought his meal was about 500 calories. I don't
know if he was screwing with me or not, but he was way off!
His meal consisted of two beers, a side salad, and 15 boneless wings
with sauce. When we got home, I checked - he had almost 2000
calories! How is that man not the size of a barn???
As an aside, I got five traditional wings (no breading)
and a salad. I would have figured that I had about 500 calories. The actual damage: 781!!! That's after deconstructing the salad!!!
I've been tracking calories after the fact for a while now. It seems to be working out for me. I try to eat something reasonable and within my personal given parameters and then add it all up. For the most part, I stay within a 200 calorie range with the average around 1700. Today was a higher day, the last two days were on the lower end of the range.
The thing is that I was pretty satisfied and satiated with what I had for dinner. Then I stopped and remembered what I used to eat at a wing place. We'd usually split one or two appetizers, I'd have 20 wings with fries, and usually a beer - maybe two. Even more than what hubster had at dinner tonight. That's amazing. And that was only dinner!!!! I'm not sure I could eat all that at one sitting now if I tried. I mean, I was pretty satisfied when we left tonight.
The other thing is that I thought that what I was eating before was okay and that I was probably eating about 800 calories. Somehow the math always worked out in MY head that I wasn't eating too much.
And I wondered why I wasn't able to lose weight and, in fact, was gaining weight. I'm starting to think it wasn't a thyroid problem.
*DBA - Donna's Big Ass