Well...here I am...
...thinking about my reflection.
Just let me say right off the bat, I'm frustrated and damn near ready to cry. It's been such an incredibly frustrating day. There were too many straws on this camel's back today.
It started off at a two hour meeting this morning. It was quite frustrating and the outcome of the meeting cast a pall over the rest of the day.
Since the meeting was so long, I was late for the retirement luncheon...and I had the present!!! When I got there, everyone was already seated, but they weren't so far along. I got situated and started to unwind a little bit. All around me, most everyone was drinking a beer and having lots of bready, scrumptious, I-wanted-to-eat-because-I'm-in-a-shitty-mood kind of food.
So what did I do? I ordered a diet soda (a treat instead of water/unsweetened tea) and ate salmon and asparagus for my meal. So yeah - I did fine, but it pissed me off. How stupid is that???
Toward the end of the lunch, I needed to get back to the lab for yet another meeting. As I stood up, I saw someone in front of me and realized it was me. I looked awful. My hair is stupid looking, my glasses look awful on me, and I'm just so fat. What am I gonna have to do to look better? For ME to think I look better?
Is this what other people see when they look at me?
Thirty pounds down and I'm so heavy that for the most part, you can't even tell I've lost weight.
It's just frustrating.
Onward I reckon.