Well...here I am...
...Hanging in there.
I really appreciated the comments of my other blogger buddies. Funny how all that works. I didn't want to post because I didn't want to admit/let folks know that I had crashed and burned because I wanted to be an example and I didn't want to be judged and on and on. What do I find when I do fess up? Nothing but support - and I appreciate it more than you know. It makes it easier in a way.
Gotta say though - my first thought tonight was to not post, but writing has been an awesome vehicle for me to CTFO about my efforts. Interestingly enough, I don't like talking about it with folks - not friends, not family, not anyone really. But writing and interacting here is a positive thing.
While it does seem counter-productive, and maybe it is, hubster and I went out for dinner tonight. It's been a taxing week. Hell - every week is taxing.
Anyway - I did good at dinner. Steak, salad, and veggies. I started to order a beer, but then I realized it wasn't something I needed to do. So I ordered tea instead. And I was just fine - no angst or anything about it at all. I also left off the bread and potato as well. The steak wasn't all that good, so I brought half of it home.
I've been thinking a lot about the last few months. I had been struggling for a while and then we add all the stress of the move - even though it was a positive move. A lot of upset in the normal routine and then developing a new routine that's a lot different than before. I've not slept well. I've had a few injuries/illnesses - more on that later. All of this along with the new job - I guess I was just overwhelmed and lost the internal focus on myself.
The bad thing is that it wasn't too difficult to fall off the wagon. There's got to be some meaning there - something to learn - but at this point I don't know what it is.
Diva recommended The Diet Fix. I downloaded it several months ago when I first heard about it, but never read it. I will start tonight. I'll be interested in what the author says. I know Gwen recently read the book and seems to be a fan. Both are people, among others, whose diet advice I'd take. They've both shown their "realness" and I appreciate it.
Let's see what tomorrow brings.