Well...here I am...
...thinking about this exercise thang.
And yep, I got up this morning and walked. And yes, I still detest it and I'm sure I will for a while. I'm inherently lazy unless there's a purpose. However, a few years ago - 2010 time frame - I was walking at a pace of 5 miles/hour in the humid DC summer weather. There were several Saturdays that I walked half marathons just for the hell of it. At the time, I had a higher goal - a higher purpose.
But I hated it then too. While I got into the habit of it, it wasn't a part of me. I wish I could get the essence that Crabby or YumYucky have regarding their love...or at least strong like...of exercise.
Fast forward to now. I know exercise not gonna help me lose weight, but I feel that now, more than ever, I've got to somehow incorporate it into my life.
That is something I really believe.
And I'm going to fight myself every step of the way.
So, which "me" is going to win? I dunno - like a lot of things, I'll probably have lots of starts and stops. This time is indeed yet another start, but it's better than not starting at all.
Several folks have commented that if I hate it so much, I should find something different or a different time. At this point, that won't work for several reasons. I mean - should I attempt to exercise after I've been up for a while and have worked at least a 10 hour day? I *KNOW* that's not gonna work. Lunch time won't work because I'm usually cramming in lunch between meetings or working while eating. So morning time seems best
As far as some other activity - I gotta work in to something more rigorous. Since regaining weight, my knees and ankles ache more often. Something is wrong with my shoulder and I really do need to get an MRI - I don't know if I tore something in my shoulder or if the vertebra in my neck are all wonky again. I'm still dealing with the swelling from the cellulitis infection in my left leg - that is quite the story.
So walking seems to be the thing. Walking in the morning really seems to be the thing. I'm fighting myself with excuses to NOT do it every morning, but I know every excuse is just a lie in a pretty package.
One good thing is that I'm really tired at the end of the day - I mean really tired, so I'm not staying up late and trying to get more sleep. And getting more sleep is a good thing.
I'm often feeling negative about this whole weight thing lately and feel that it's coming through in my writing. I'm trying to work through it and regain a healthy perspective.
Food was good today. Yeah me.
That's about it for today. My son and his friend are supposed to arrive tomorrow - I'm one excited mama!