Well...here I am...
...suffering from a lack of progress.
Self-induced, but frustrating nonetheless.
I'm still working with the trainer, though we've had scheduling conflicts over the last two weeks - on his part and mine. We'll be back at it tomorrow.
One struggle I've had lately is back pain. It's been a real bitch. I can't really predict what's going to cause it. It will be excruciating and I'm barely able to walk; later, it won't hurt at all. I've had a couple of massages and am seeing a DO. I think he's helping, but it still hurts every day.
On the food front, I continue to struggle. I'm not doing anything to gain weight, but I'm not doing enough to lose weight. My weight is wavering between the same 3 pounds for the last...forever it seems.
As far as losing weight goes, I feel like I no longer know how to do anything even though I've been successful in the past. I don't know where that feeling comes from or even how it comes on. One minute I'm fine and feeling like I've got this; the next minute, I'm feeling like a failure and just want to throw in the towel.
It doesn't help when you read about the success of long-term weight loss - it's miserly.
Even with this, I still feel more positive than not; I've just got to get my shit together and keep it together.
Since I don't have a magic pill, I will have to continue trying to make changes to some long-lived habits. Maybe that's the magic pill - changed habits. Those pills are hard to come by, but I've got to believe, that with hard work and some strong effort, I'll be able to have a permanent prescription.