Well...here I am...
Having a relapse...perhaps.
I felt pretty okay yesterday, but today I have a headache again and I'm just not feeling 100% at all. My neck is stiff...again...and I just feel blah. But ya gotta trudge on.
I think about this road I'm on all the time and I don't know if it's a good thing or not. I don't think so much about the scale, but more about the journey - how long will it take to lose all the weight? if/when am I going to hit a plateau? can I stick with it forever? how will my eating adapt over time?
I feel pretty settled in and calm with everything I'm doing, but I do have a vague sense of doubt. Perhaps I'm just not confident with these changes yet. Keeping that mean "failure" devil on my shoulder at bay is an on-going effort, but it's not overly difficult. It's just there.
The scale was down this morning, so that's good. I've gotta say - I
played the game of moving the scale around the floor in the hopes of
getting the scale to go down just 0.2 lbs more, so that I would be less
than 275! I shouldn't be greedy, but such is me.
Talking about the scale, I was thinking today that I'll believe I'm on the right track and doing the right thing when my weight falls below 265. Why that number? I'm not sure, but I think it's because I've gotten to that point in recent years and then reversed direction. I've basically lost 5 lbs in the last month. I was hoping that it would be more like 10-12, but I have to remember that I am a 52 year old, out of shape woman. But I am changing all that. In any event, the scale IS down a solid 5 pounds and I'm glad of it!
Yesterday was a pretty good day. Hubby and I slept a bit late yesterday, but made a quick trip out and about to get a few things done. I didn't eat before we left, so I was hungry when we got home. I was in a rush to get going because I had a nail and hair appointment, so I just ate some chicken and called it good.
My nails look really good and my hair looks great. I really like the new style - my hair has a lot of movement now and just really works for me. It was a new salon for me, but I will be a regular customer.
We had steak and asparagus for dinner last night. It was quite cold outside, so hubby cooked them in the oven. I don't know how he did it, but they were really good and tasted great. For breakfast this morning, I made a wonderful omelette. It was simple - just eggs, bacon, and cheese - but it was really good. Every time I make/eat an omelette, I think of some friends of ours in Georgia. The first time we stayed with them, the husband made these wonderful omelettes with neufchatel cheese. YUM!
I didn't exercise yesterday, so that meant I had to do it today. And God knows, exercising is a struggle for me.
We have a smart TVs that has an exercise option (who knew?!?!), so I checked that out and ended up doing a 20-minute pilates segment. It's amazing how out of shape I actually am, but I finished the 20 minutes. Towards the end, I got an intense headache - I think it's because I was actually holding my breath instead of breathing while doing some of the moves - how stupid is that? It took a few minutes for the headache to go away, but I'm good now.
So - mission accomplished. It wasn't what I had planned, but I moved. My goal now is to exercise two times in the coming week and to wear that pedometer every day and try to move a minimum of 5000 steps...each day...not for the entire week.
It's a bit frustrating that I'm so unfit. I mean I used to do 10k steps easily, but now? Laziness has taken over. It's my own fault. And if I don't start somewhere, I'll never get back there.
I've also been looking for some sugar-free desserts that I could make. I found a website called All Day I Dream About Food. It looks quite interesting and I'm sure I'll be looking at her recipes regularly.
Anyway, this is where I am today.