Well...here I am...
...I've had a successful weekend.
We made our weekly Costco run and got the usual. They had the fudge demos there for the beginning of the holidays. I put two packages of fudge - 2 pounds total - in our cart. Hubster eyed it with suspicion. I told him that it was for when the family visited at Thanksgiving When we were ready to check out, we reviewed the items in the cart - the fudge was put back. It was for the best. While I think I could have handled it, there's no need to put unneeded obstacles in my way - there are plenty anyway!
For some reason, I didn't sleep well last night and was up when the time changed. It ended up helping since I slept a bit late today. Because I slept late, I only ate twice with a snack in between.
Breakfast was a beautiful omelet - eggs, cheese, bacon, and mushroom - cooked in my cast iron skillet. It was awesome. I swear I think it cooks better than other types of skillets. Dinner was chicken and beans and my snack was the brie, sopressatta, and almonds. It was a perfect food day - the macros are the way I like and I'm satisfied.
I received an email last week from a company that would like for me to try their food and blog about it and to relate my experience with their program. I've thought about it a lot and even replied with a few questions. While it's a bit enticing and I feel a bit complimented about it, I don't think I'm going to participate - perhaps in the future, but not now.
When I started the DIP back in January, even though I didn't know how I was going to do it, I was determined to do it on my own - to figure this out for myself and me - to wade through all the bullshit. I've tried plenty of programs in the past and nothing has been long term as I didn't learn how to deal with the emotions about food, with the various food situations, with the emotional food situations I found myself in...even when it wasn't a situation!!!
While I screw up all the time, I've truly learned a lot in the last 10 months and I've made tremendous strides and progress - and most importantly, I still have that determination today It's not perfection, but it is progress - and that's really what it's all about. The saying is "work in progress", not "work in perfection."
It's been slow going the last couple of months - extremely slow going. But that's a big lesson as well. The biggest thing I've learned is that I can do this even when the going gets rough - that I do have the fortitude to keep trudging along, that I can recover when I screw up, that I don't have to be perfect to be successful. If I hadn't learned this, I could very well be 350 lbs right now - no shit.
So - for these reasons, I'm gonna stick with the DIP. Progress is not just a number on the scale.